what happened to the world

As a single parent today, I can clearly see that things are nowhere near where they use to be. Remember when a child acted as child? Playing with dolls, toy trucks, blocks, puzzles, video games and some would even read books while other played video games. Parents would help each other when needed even if the favor could not be returned. Children would play in the yard, at the park, in the pool and everybody was friendly. Now dont get me wrong there were some bad seeds in every era but it seems as though our future will not be too prosperous from what we all see today. For example when you do something from the kindness of your heart, for some reason sometimes it bites you in the ass. We all have our own beliefs and we judge others based on what we see and our beliefs. Then you have some people who judge just off of one or the other. To them there is no in-between according to them. Either way judging somebody is not what you get paid to do and we all know you not doing community service so stop it! I am so irritated with things like this only because now my kindness is biting me in my ass. After recently relocating alone I said I would avoid trouble in any shape or form. Some people befriended me in my new neighborhood for a whole year and everything was good until out of the kindness of my heart I made a positive move. I saw a situation going on between a couple which involved kids. My personal beliefs are single mothers need to stick together, I even give advice to some people who come to me. In the end of the situation the mother gets incarcerated and asks me to take her children and the keys to her house and car. I treated her children as if they were mine, stayed in contact with the family until her aunt arrived. When her aunt arrived i put the children and both keys in her hand and offered to help her clean up. The next day her aunt drove me to go get my daughters report card and dropped me off to do community service on fenwick street in augusta. The whole time i as in the car my hands were in my lap, the only thing I touched was the door. After her aunt left with the kids i text her aunt and called her aunt just checking on the kids and she told me they would be coming back to get some more stuff for the children. I was happy I was going to see the little minchkins again. Within the next 24-48 hours somebody broke into the home i was responsible for by choice.As soon as I heard the glass break I got scared because it sounded as if it was in my house. Since I was already on the phone with somebody who is always in the middle of something I told them what I thought was happening and hung up and called the police department and reported it anonmously with a fear that my home may be next. I even walked around the building to the back of the apartments and saw the evidence consiting of broken glass and a chair. With the fear of being seen I quickly walked back around the building and in the house. At that point I was terrified to either go to sleep or go back out,it was already midnight. The next morning I called maintenance and explained what was going on and asked them to lock her door and fix her window. The suspect left her door wide open as the person responsible I went in her home and took photos of certain areas and called her family to inform them of the incident. As soon as her mother got wind of the situation she blamed everything on me, not knowing a single detail about nothing just plain out assuming. When she was released I knocked on her door, even though she was at home, she never answered the door. Later that day a aquantaince of mine came to the door amped up talking about I put his name in it. I had already told her mom who I heard did it and had my messages to prove it. After hearing her say how she felt I spoke my piece and walked off. As I am leaving her house I get a phone call stating "stay away from my house before I come shoot all yall shit up!" I responded "if you wanna come down here and do something come fists up and leave the weapon!" Unfortunately not one of her people were willing to admit to making the phone call, I guess they was not war ready. As soon as that call ended I chose to call her brother in law chino and try to find out what was going on. He was just as loss as me in the situation so I decided to call the police because I needed somebody there that would interfere with the way my mind was thinking. I wanted to beat her ass that night! Making a move like that right now could have cost me everything so I had to protect her from me as well as protect me from myself. Since when does having a kind heart make somebody a suspect?

part VII continued

As Beatrice and her date entered the theatre they stopped at the concession stand and got some sweets for the movie. As she ordered her some milk duds and a drink the youngman behind the counter was so enticed by her look her could not focus on his job. He dropped 2 drinks and forgot to take payment for another. Monty looked at her and they laughed in unison. Monty then said "you see what your beauty does to men regardless of the age!" Beatrice responded "I cant help that I am blessed." They laughed again. Finally they recieved their order and only had three minutes to make it to the designated theatre. Because Beatrice knew her way around she knew exactly where the theatre was located. When they found a seat they cuddled as close as they could and waited for the movie to start. During the movie a couple came in and sat directly in front of Monty and Beatrice, when they sat down everything was fine until they started arguing. Beatrice took this as long as she could and even told Monty if they didnt shut the fuck up she was gonna take action. The longer she waited for this to end the louder they became, sobeatrice decided to speak up but in a cordial way. Beatrice politely tapped the woman on her shoulder and said "Excuse me miss, can you keep it down we are trying to enjoy the movie?" The woman responds nastily saying "You can mind your business, this has nothing to do with you!" At that point Beatrice lost it. Monty tried to grab her and she smacked him in the face as she was standing to approach the woman. Beatrice the told the woman "Bitch, I dont give a damn about how you or your man feel right now! I advise you to shut the fuck up about all that shit because you brought your business to the fucking theatre! You should have stayed at fucking home for all that shit!" The woman replies, "I advise you to have a seat because I am not in the mood for none of this", beatrice remained standing and says "Try me bitch! You should think about what you do before you do it because youfucking with the wrong one! I just asked you to keep it down but if you wanna take this to the next level I really hope you are fucking ready!" As soon as the woman said one word Beatrice was over the seat on top of her punching her in the face so hard she damn near brokeher nose. Everybody in the theatre crowded around and when the employees and police came they all defended Beatrice. The lady wanted to press charges but she knew in the court of law she was dead wrong for bringing her problems to the movie theatre. After speaking to the officers Beatrice and Monty left the thatre and went to the bar. At the bar Beatrice ordered two shots of gin straight and Monty ordered two shot of hennesey. As they took their shots they talked about the situation that had just took place. Monty said "Hey B, why you jump on that lady like that?" Beatrice said "She should have watched her mouth! I did not say anything wrong to her from jump!" They both laughed. They left th bar around twelve thirty and he took Beatrice back home. You would think Monty and Beatrice were in a relationship because they spent so much time together but that was only because Monty didnt like to go out alone and he barely had any friends besides Beatrice.The next morning Beatrice got a call from Toby who was a guy she attended high school with and she always wanted to go on one date with him and this was her chance! Beatrice answered the phone with a joyous tone and she could hear the smile form on his lips. There was only one reason he called and she already knew he wanted to see her. Not knowing his reasons for wanting to see her she agreed to meet up with him. When he arrived at the proposed destination he saw her standing there in some fitted jeans, a blue shirt and some blue heels. She looked so astonishing that he almost missed his turn to get to her and that made her laugh. When she got in the car she asked him "so, what do you want to do?" He responded, "Lets go out to eat!" Beatrice was prepared for anything. He then looked ather and said "you look great!" She replied "Thank you" then there was a brief pause. They rode to va beach and dined in at the cheesecake factory.

why is having a title so important

Why do people think titles are what helps to build bonds and make relationships stronger or even make people think there is a lot of trust in the relationship. Trust is not built easily for some bt others its like cutting a pie. If somebody tell another individual they are not looking for a relationship or ready for one they just want to have sex. Sex is a bonus to any relationship unless that is what it is based around. You should be able to talk, laugh, cry, comfort, or even joke with their partner. Why do some people think others are supposed to sit around and wait for the other to come to their senses. You have got to be crazy to give somebody more than a year to either leave you alone or stay around. The way I see it while you are dealing with the pain of confusion and emotions you take that time to work on yourself. As you work on yourself you will eventually find happiness. Sometimes you fall in love with somebody who has not quite figured out what they want in life other than money, sex and whatever else they decide. You have only two choices and that is deal with all the bullshit that cpmes with the relationship or move on. Then you have the times when everything is just right but things just dont come out well when planned. This is a situation where you have to have faith in true love, loyalty and trust but sometimes things go wrong and you cant seem to make it right. There is nothing wrong with being true friends before taking things to the next step. Sometimes you may get the urge to push forward but thats when you show your true strength. When you hold back emotional and sexual urges you will realize exactly how strong you are and you will no longer allow certsin things to be a issue in your life. Losing somebody that means so much to you can hurt so bad but nobody ever realizes exactly how much that someone means until they are no longer in their life. So before making a decision on whether or not this person is boyfriend/girlfriend material make sure they have more qualities you like before placing a title on things. When you put a title on things some people take things too far and try to control you in some type of way. Having a title is not a secure way of preventing somebody from cheating. All a title means is that one or both of you are feeling the same about each other or one feels mor for the other. So please choose wisely with your life decisions because you never really know a person until you get a chance to see them in the light of day. In the words of my grandmother you never know if they are a wolf in sheeps clothing.

moving on

Nine years ago I met a man that I never thought would change my life in any way. He was a kind, loving, responsible young man. He showed me more affection than any man before and I was dwelling in the moment. We had our good times and we had our bad times but through it all we had each others back in just about every situation. We were engaged twice and I turned him down twice. There were only two situations I felt alone in. One was I had to defend our names against my neighbors boyfriend and i got a scar to prove it,then I was put on child support no means of paying but hewanted me to stay home. Now I could work if I wanted to and I did. Now ten years later he gets married on mother's day after he tells me he wants to come get our daughter. As a protective mother and I have never seen this woman, talked to this woman or met this woman i dont think it would be proper for me as a parent to allow my child around someone i have never had a conversation with. Now this is not a weekend stay she will actually be going for months and she is only four years of age. Now my concern is some people treat other kids different than their own and knowing that her father will be working most of the time yhat leaves my child in her hands. Granted he is a good father to both his children butafter being with this man for nine long years I know what he is capable of and what he will do. He will leave everything for her to do as if all he is supposed to do is work and take care of the bills. Other than that and his attitude he was wonderful as a family man. He has only known this woman less than a year and I am afraid of what she is capabe of. Now to solve my issues I have offered for him and his wife to come to my childs graduation even though the marriage is queastionable to me. Women can be very devious and men who are still getting over previous loves fall victim and i am scared this may be the case. I care so much for both my baby and baby's father that i dont want neither one to be hurt. Should I leave it alone and allow my child aroundthis mysterious woman or should I stick to how i feel and take it from there regardless of how he feel?

When you try so hard

When you try so hard to be more than what people expect of you nobody knows how hard it is on you. Especially when you are a single mother raising kids without the help of any male figure and things start to go south not for your children but for you. You are standing strong at one point and all of a sudden something knocks you down. You are getting up from it but it takes forever for you to stand strong again. This drives me crazy and being that I am really in this alone I sometimes have a hard time focusing on what I have to do. I am a strong minded, strong willed, independent woman whonis willing to do anything for her family and cant find a foundation to build on. Throughout my life I have learned there are people who want to see you succeed and people who want to see you fail. It is so sad to me that parents today allow their children to go overboard at a young age and then when the shit hits the fan claims to know nothing or tried to stop them! When you make them respect you and other adults, be responsible and take care of their home sometimes they grow to be respectable adults. Some kids just have a mind of their own with a outrageous attitude and you fear hurting them which makes it hard to punish them in any shape or form but something needs to happen! I personally face the smart mouth, moody, lazy teenager who does not believe any punishment is fair. Since when is it ok for a child to speak to an adult in any tone? Why is it wrong for me to spank my child for doing something they shouldnt have based on the severity? Is the world today trying to allow these children, our future, to destry or end civilization? The bible even says spare the rod spoil the child! There are consequences to being a here on earth with all these laws that restrict certain aspects in life. If your child raises a hand at you, supposedly you are supposed to talk it out without any violence, but what of that technique does not work for that specific child? As a parent I do not think abuse is the same as a spanking which some children need! It is completely crazy for you to allow your child to act out or even sit on the floor in public unless its part of the outing. Control your children and raise them to respect others and our future will remain in tact! Think on that before you agree that something a parent does is not done properly. Each child is handled differently!

why do me do what they do

Some of these men today need a reality check! They need to realize that love does not come with a good connection at first. Shit some people actually cant stand each other at first and most of the time its only because they have so much feelings for one another. When they actually put in the work to show a bad, confused, abused, well basically damaged girl she has no idea what she has and does him wrong. Every man is not built ford tough, in touch with their feelings or ready to commit to a serious relationship. As individuals, even us women, have our reserved feelings about people's motives. Sometime not only do they have to put in some hard word the damaged individual does too. Now as you can see I changed it from men to individuals because today women are just as bad as men. Sometimes you gotta be patient and continue to focus on you as the other individual does what it is they do best. I am not saying stick around or wait around for a individual to get it right! If you run into a good catch to let it loose because you still feeling somebody else. Give them a fighting chance at your heart and stop letting the past control your future. We all deserve happiness but sometimes happiness comes at a price and it all about if you want to pay it do so on your own. The only thing a female or male should do in a relationship ,especially if they not serious, is buy when and what he/she wants when they want. The other party should be grateful they have somebody who will do things out of the kindness of their hearts. My message to all of our youth is to cherish the woman who cherishes you and always keep one eye open. Everything can not be solved with violence so think before you act!

what is considered stalking

There is a definition for the word stalking and then there is my definition of stalking! The definition of stalking is unwanted attention from a individual or group of individuals, now my definition just goes a little more into detail. This goes for guys and girls! If you have dated or just see this person and you can't seem to let them live a normal life without showing your face you stalking. If you always seem to have a attitude or seem extra happy when a certain individual is mentioned you borderline stalking. If you stay nowhere near their neighborhood and always seem to find a reason to be in the area, even if it is family you dont really like, you stalking. Since when does a person doing things they dont normally do to see a individual is plain stalking. Why can't some people just accept that either they are wanted or unwanted by an individual? Why is it so hard for people to express their feelings? The way I see it we are all grown and we should all be completely honest with the other party from jump. Think on that and leave your thoughts

The things you go through when you in love

I always knew I was wifey material but guys always gotta be selfish, disrespectful or disloyal. As a single woman I have been through so much with so many guys I have gotten to the point where my tolerance is low for men because of the things written above. Previously I was talking to this guy for years on and off and he always gave me what i wanted bt i had to deal with other females and too much drama. After him it was a guy who was always irritated and stayed being mean for no reason, I could not deal with him at all! He only lasted about 2 weeks. Then there were the liars that came around when beneficial to them and stay lying about unneccessary shit. They only las a week at the most with me lmao. Then you have the ones who cant comprehend nothing thats being said, everything is always misinterpreted. Miscommunication is a problem for me being that I am very intellectual and conversating is something I like to do, which means they only last a few days lls. Ok now my problem is i met a guy who contains every single one of those traits but he is so addictive to me. This man was my everything in my new space and he took that away from me. I finally decided to give him my all and he bounced with too much animosity for no reason. I fell in love with the crazy contraption god made this man to be and I cant seem to shake the feelings. No matter what I do or who I talk to he always resurfaces in my mind. I could be cuddling with somebody and get the urge to text him or just start thinking about him and he act like he wants nothing to do with me. This man is driving me into a pit of feelings that i cant control no matter how hard I try. He obviously still has something going for me because he keeps riding past my house knowing he dont talk to nobody on my street. He always bringing me up to the same people he dont talk to like that knowing they my associates too. In my mind i wanna move on but my heart wont allow me to.

PartVII

Before leaving her grandmothers home Beatrice made it known she wanted the money owed to her for filing her child. Her grandmother angrily told her "I am not giving you shit, I will spend that money on the baby!". Instead of continuing to argue with her grandmother Beatrice politely packed her and her baby things as she looked for a motel for her family to stay in. By the time her grandmother came home from work her house was empty of anything that would remind her of Beatrice. As soon as she got settled in the room she sat down and put the baby to sleep and made one phone call to a close friend who she knew would come to her rescue. Out of all the people she encountered between nine different schools and two different cities she only had a handful that she could trust. This guy was a lifesaver every time and regardless of what he was doing he made time for Beatrice. She called him Monty, she had a thing where your real name was something that should never be used so she gave everybody their own name. She called him Monty because he was a nice guy who had good money and did not mind spending. When the phone call was over she finally asked her parents to keep the baby because she was sleeping and at that time they no longer used drugs. Monty would be there in twenty minutes so she had to clean up quick! She went in the room and found a nice pair of blue jeans, a black top, some clean underclothes and a pair of all black knee high boots. She was ready to go on the town in fifteen minutes and still had time to smoke the blunt she rolled while she was on the phone with Monty. As soon as she lit the blunt she heard a knock at the door and politely said "who is it?", but she could barely hear their response. So she got up and went to the door and repeated herself, this time she heard them and opened the door. As she was opening the door she seen Monty pulling up. She wanted to surprise him with her new look since he had not seen her in a few days so she closed the door and waited for his call. As she waited for his call she continued to talk to a old friend she had not seen since high school named Corey. They use to always pick with each other and plot on others together outside of school. Two minutes later the phone rings instead of answering on the first ring she waited for the third ring and answered. Before she left the house the gave herself one more look over and walked outside and down the steps. Montty did not see Beatrice until she started coming down the steps so at first all he saw was a pair of womens high heeled knee high boots. As Beatrice face slowly appeared and he realized whonit was he mouth dropped wide open in shock because he was unaware of what he should expect. When she got in the car all he could do was smile and gawk at her beauty. She was not sure of his response so she blushed as he took it all in and two minutes later they pulled off. As they rode down Jefferson ave he asked her "what do you want to do?" She replied "can we go to the movies?" Before she knew it he was already in route to Regal Cinemas and knew what they were going to see. She walked in the theatre with so much pride and confidence even the workers noticed her. As he bought the tickets a guy standing with his date for the night was sending Beatrice eye signals and she just turned her head.

The way people think today

In today's world I have noticed that people are not as kind and friendly as they use to be. We all have our own minds yes but do people have to be so devious, trifling or just plain old wrong? In my life I have ran across plenty of nasty individuals who are looking to only get what they want or need from you everytime they come see you. I recently enountered a guy who treated me like a queen and cared for my kids as if they were his bt in the end he did nothing bt talk bad about me, stalk me and curse at me after we stop talking. In my previous relationship i was well taken care of as long as I did what he needed done until I had his child then he did everything because of his child. I have encountered several women who took advantage of a good man making it hard for a good woman to keep him. There are a shortage of good men and women in the world today because of people doing things to hurt them mentally, physically, emotionally or spiritually. Why hurt people who break their backs to be a part of your life? Why be a careless person when you can be a person of gratitude, honesty, trust and loyalty?

Learning how to be a mother

Even though her parents were still on drugs Beatrice  did whatever  she had or wanted to do. She was starting ti realize ahead had to be an adult and stop running the streets during her free time. She trusted her parents but not with her child while they were on drugs because of what happened to her. At this point she started focusing on getting a job even though she just found out she would have to attend night school in order to graduate. So during the summer she got a job working in a call center, then along comes the school year. Now she attends school during regular hour getting out at 1, right school ending at 3 and work from 3-12. Her schedule was now full, she did not have time fir her child let alone her self. Things were going fine when all of a sudden her baby got sick. When she took her to the doctor they said basically the baby was healthy and at that point she decided her schedule was too busy for a 3-7 month old. Before quitting her job she discussed with her parents about transportation and she hit a dead end with them again. She made a promise to herself that she was going to try and be a little more independent and that went good for a few months until she had to drop out of school. That was the hardest thing for her to do because ahead has always been interested in going to college and she was already in her senior year. Making that decision broke her heart but it was either the education or the income, which both of them will help provide for a family she chose the one she needed at that time the most. When tax time rolled around everybody wanted to file her child but she planned on filing her but her papers never arrived so she told her mom she could file her. When her grandmother asked about it she expressed he mother would be doing it and germ grandmother took it upon herself and filed her anyway.

Part VI

After finally getting in touch with the school board she found out her parents had to support her story by going to the school board. Her mother said she had to work so she asked her father who was not working at the time and he also said no. Beatrice made the decision to continue going to school and do all she can to graduate. The first year of her daughters life was hard for her. Between going to high school from 7 a.m to 12 p.m, night school from 1p.m to 3 p.m and working from 3p.m til midnight she was most exhausted while her baby was getting sick. Beatrice asked her parents to co-sign on a car and they refused. She brought her grades up but had to quit school because her baby needed her and her parents were still on drugs. Although she was surrounded by family she still had very little support and wanted more out of life not only for her but for her baby. She had no idea raising a child would be as hard as it was for her, her child had problems from birth that she was unaware of due to lack of information. Long sleepless nights and countless doctors visits were her schedule over the next 4 years to find out what was wrong with her baby girl and what she could do to help. At the age of five her daughter was diagnosed with chronic constipation, which could have been caught at birth. To find out her baby colon was backed up and not working properly was heart breaking, she did everything she possibly could to comply with the doctors. Valentines day that year she got pregnant with her second child and was still in a odd position in life. Pregnant and all she was at every doctors appointment and still worked to provide although there was a good chance of her losing the job because she need more time off than normal. On november she gave birth to another beautiful baby girl and her heart grew warmer

Part III

while thinking about Bryan's proposal for a while and the way he treats her and everything else she had going on. Granted he was a good lover but he had his faults. He would take her to his house regardles of what woman he had in his room, fix her breakfast after meeting her at her bus top or on the way and giving her at least $500 to spend as she please. She was young but she was a accessory that plenty of guys wanted. He woud do anything for her even have his guys follow her and he would say it was for her protection. How he would always seem to find her when she moved and say '' If you leave your boyfriend I will leave my girlfriend and we can go get married right now!''. This was strange to her, she had never thought or paid attention to anything outside the money and sex. She was blinded by something that could make her or break her. Everybody in the neighborhood knew about her pregnancy and she still had not told her father. One day while she was over a friends house somebody told her that her apartment was on fire. Even though she was pregnant she started asking questions about the incident. She was told a cousin of hers was behind the apartment in the exact spot the fire started before the flames began to grow. As she put it all together in her mind she ran to where her cousin was and confronted him and she was ready to fight. Due to fire dmage to the apartment they had to move and had three days to get all their stuff out. They lost everything including items that reminded her of her grandfather and photo albums. They moved and she changed schools and ran into some old friends and new friends. As she grew throught her pregnancy and started to wobble because she was only  five foot three and now weighed almost two hundred pounds. When she told Kalib, how was he gonna respond was all she could think about. He was her main dude and he was very immature. When he found out he said it wasn't his and that hurt her feelings so she went on throughout the pregnancy with her parents and that is what she did. She was worried about her childs health because of the heavy drinking and smoking she did the first four months. During her eleventh grade year while she carried her baby she countinued to go to school. When she was seven in a half months pregnant she went to the office and asked for a elevator key because taking the steps everyday was becoming a problem. They refused to give her a key to the elevator because it was only used for hadicap students. The next day while trying to make it to class she went up the stairs and lost her balance. Luckily there was another student behind her and gave her a hand by adding support to her back. When she got to class shr was exahuasted, she tried to pay attention in class but she was too tired to stay awake. She slept through most of the class and had to go back downstairs to get to the next one. When she got downstairs she went straight to her guidance counselor and told her what had just happened by the end of the day she got notified that she was gonna start homebound. They assigned a teacher to come to her house and teach her to avoid any incidents. For the remainder of her pregnancy she kept good grades and she still talked to Kalib because he was incarcerated and none of his other females would not accept his calls or write. In April of 2000 she gave birth to a healthy baby girl and was ready to go back to school but there was one problem. She had a boil on her butt and was forced to continue homebound. Eventually her homebound teacher had decided the she was only going to come on Mondays and Fridays then eventually she did not come at all. When she finally got her report card she had all F's and one A so she made the decision to call the school board again and find out what she had to do to get her grades right.

Street life II part one

Beatrice accepted the proposal from Bryan but refused to move in with him. She was in a cosmetology class in the mornings. This class was not located inside her school, so they had a bus that would transport  the kids back and forth to Paul Jones education center. The next morning when she woke up to go to school her stomach was turning. Beatrice thought it was from the night before because she was drinking heavy and smoking heavy as well as smoking cigarettes. So she decided she was not going to school until noon, she sent Clarice to school and went to see her friend Tasha. When she got to Tasha's house she found out Tasha was hung over too. Tasha told her ''The best way to get over a hang over is to drink another alcoholic beverage.'', so Beatrice took that drink. As they were drinking and talking Tasha was rolling a blunt and Beatrice noticed that her stomach did feel a little better but was still hurting. While they smoked Tasha said '' You need to go to school'', Beatrice then told her '' Girl I was still drunk when I woke up this morning, there was no way I was gonna go to school like that! I am going to schol at 12 since none of my classes at the school start until after lunch.'', Tasha agreed and rolled another blunt. When 12 o'clock came beatrice thought about her day as she was getting dressed and someone knocked on the door. When she opened the door it was Kalib and he came over so they can spend some time together. They smoked 3 more blunts while they cuddled on the couch, then they went upstairs to have sex. After a hour and a half Kalib had to leave to go make a sell and school was letting out so Beatrice went to see another friend named Angel. She was one of her closest friends in the neighborhood and they had a little group that they hung out with. Angel and Beatrice played a card game called five thousand for almost a hour then Victoria, Malika, Yolanda, and Wendy walked in, so they started playing spades. Yolonda did not play cards so she just sat and watched. This was the house that everybody hung out at and Angel's mother was a really cool addict who didn't care aboit the company they kept. She spent most of her time in her room with her friends, there was no mystery as to what was going on up there because when you go upstairs you could smell the stinch of her drug of choice. The next thing Beatrice knew Kalib was walking through the door and he came to sit right beside Beatrice. Everybody knew Kalib and Beatrice was talking but nobody knew if it was serious or not. Only Beatrice and Kalib knew the answer to that and their lips were sealed. As Beatrice continued to play cards Kalib rolled a blunt and passed it around. There was only Kalib, Beatrice and Malika smoking  the blunt which was better to them. ''The less people smoking the higher we get'' Kalib said.

Strret life 2 part two

Bryan would do his dirt and then disappear for months and come back thinking things would still be the same. Even though Beatrice was only 16 she was mot blind to his actions. The months he was gone he had other females and still had his guys on her tail keeping chevk on her. One day he left to go do some dirt and go caught. Beatrice was at his house waiting for him to come back and then there was a hard knock at the door. When she looked out the windoe she saw a police car sitting outside so she opened the door. The officer at the door handed her a set of car keys and told her they had bryan in custody. She was upset at him but she went to the window of the police car and Bryan told her where she could find the car. Now she was at his house feeling a little uneasy because the only other person there was his cousin John. John was a drug addict and she did not trust him one bit but she couldnt go home at 3:30 in the morning and all her friends were sleep. So as she laid down she put the keys under the blanket she was laying on and just laid there eventually she fell asleep. When she got up in the morning to go get the car the keys were gone and so was John. So she got herself together and went home to shower amd eat something.
Later that day she went to her friend's house and they would play spades, go for walks, gossip, and cause chaos sometimes. As the day went on Kalib came over and joined in on the fun. He rolled a blunt and they smoked and played cards while talking trash. For some reason when Kalib was around Beatrice could not control her hormones and her judy would always start jumping. He turned her on so much she couldnt control herself and knew it. He had the most beautiful smile with the whitest teeth and had the best sense of humor with the right amount of thug. He was just her type but neither of them were ready to settle down, he was all about his women and she was thinking more of she was too young to settle down. Their relationship was open so jealousy did not exist because all either one of the had to do was comtact the other some type of way and they were there. This was the kind of relationship that brought on a lot of drama. His women would approach Beatrice and say things like ''why you talking to my man?'', Beatrice would always let them know he was gonna always be hers but she letting him play for a while. Since the Kalib could not control his women Beatrice decided she would make another friend who stayed in a different area. Instead she ran into a tall light skinned guy with a sexy body, lucious lips, and a repution in the bed. They tallked when they saw each other around the neighborhood but never on an intimate level, but Beatrice was thinking more on the intimate side. One day when they decided to go sit and have some drinks and smoke a blunt or two one thing lead to another. He was well endowed and gave slow short strokes with a light thrust while she thrusted back. To Beatrice this was a one time thing but it turned out to be more like 4 times.
One afternoon this sexy guy came and asked for more but Beatrice said no so he left. The next day while she was at her friend house sitting on the porch drinking and smoking she noticed he was coming up the street so she went in the house. He chased her upstairs to the bathroom and put his gun to her head and said''You are gonna give me some more of that pussy!''. Beatrice lookeed him in the eye and said''So what you gone shoot me cause I wont fuck you? There is a porch full of people outside so you have no chance of getting away with it! Is it that good to you, you gotta threaten a bitch to get it? Get out my way!''. She tried to push past him and he wouldnt budge, so she then said to him '' What the hell! Did you not hear what I said? You might as well get the thought of taking it out of your head too cause they all saw you chase me up here!'' amd she walked out. Later that year a guy she used to be in middle school with saw her and asked her out again for the 5th time since middle school. She wanted him to leave her alone but did not want him to get hurt so she told him she had a boyfriend and who he was. Two days later while playing craps Kalib was shot. Beatrice felt like something was up and three hours after Kalib was shot the guy she knew in middle school approched her again and said ''How about now he cant do nothing for you?''. How was Beatrice going to tell Kalib he was caught up in her mess of a rejection? What could she do? She finally decided to keep it to herself for a while she would eventually tell him. When Kalib came home from the hospital that night Beatrice was the first person he asked for and she came to his call. She spent most of the night at his house helping him and she even gave him some, of course he didnt do no work but they both enjoyed each part they played. The next day she went to school and came home and took a hot bubble bath before starting her free time. Kalib and Beatrice would drop anything they were doing for each other and their relationship grew more and more. They were best friends and lovers at the same time.
In the meantime Bryan get released and finds his way back to Beatrice and does everything possible to get her back. Yeah she was still young but he had to buy her shoes, clothes and take her out to eat and to the movies. He decided the best way to keep Beatrice happy was to fill a mens size 11 Nike shoe box up with money so she can get what she wants when she want it. Two days later they had sex, he kissed her from head to toe and passionately rubbed her body. He made her feel like a real woman that day cause he touched every part of her physically and mentally. Four months later while Beatrice was walking to the store with some friends she threw up in mid stride and replied ''somethings not right!'', but she was still hungry so she went to the store amd got her some chicken wings and fries with a sprite. Three days later she went to the doctor and found out she was four months pregnant. At this point she could only think about what her father said which was ''You better not come home pregnant cause I am gonna put you out!''. Before her and her mother left the doctors office Beatrice had already asked her mother not to tell her father.  Her mother agreed but told Beatrice she had to tell him. As weeks went by she still had not told her father she was pregnant and started wearing more boy clothes than girls. When Bryan found out Beatrice was pregnat his first solution was to marry her. So he proposed and she took the ring but with precaution because he had his ways. He was sneaky and careless at the same time, devious and had a heart of fury. When Beatrice said ''my parents are not going to allow me to marry you or live with you?''. He offer to supply their drug habit and get a duplex so her parents could still be in the same house as her. Beatrice reassured him just because her parents were on drugs does not mean they will agree to anything. They still worked and made sure their kids could eat and had clothes om their back and a roof over their head. So Beatrice knew that this was not gonna work.
More to come next week, this is where it starts to,get good so stay tuned.

Street life

Beatrice was always going somewhere and Clarice always wanted to go. This was not a problem for Beatrice because she liked having her sister around unlike some of the other siblings she knew. Keeping her sister happy was a priority for her, family is all that mattered. One guy talked her out of her panties not knowing that she had a trick for him. The entire time he was rubbing thighs and lips and maybe getting a little juices but never did he penetrate her. She finally decided to give her boyfriend at that time some and she really enjoyed it! They did it a lot and she enjoyed it so much she would have sex a lot. As time went on the moved to another neighborhood and Beatrice was on her way to graduating. Never think that the surrounding you raise your child in has no influence on their lives. You can talk until you are blue in the face but you can not control what happens outside your doors. Beatrice met a guy named Bryan, he was at least 8 years older than her and he flowered her with sweet sayings and comments, money, gifts, and attention.  One day when she came home from school he wanted to go for a walk with her and then go sit at the park. At the end of the day they went to his sisters house one thing lead to another and he showed her what it felt lie to make love. He kissed her from head to toe and so much more at that point she knew how it felt to be hooked on a dude. No matter if they were seperated and each had their own thing going they would always come back to each other. This was a major distraction in her life at the moment. She started skipping school, smoking more, drinking, and had a pocket full of money at least three days a week. He would give her whatever she asked for. When Beatrice moved she met another guy named Kalib she was not really ready for. He was only two or three years older than her but he was well experienced. They did not try to make a relationship they were just friends with benefits. Having sex to them was like going out to eat, done often and enjoyed a little too much. She started thinking" if the guys are doing women like this why cant a woman do it to a man?". Then she realized the best way to do it is learn their techniques and how their minds work. So she then picked up a guy that went to her high school and they agreed that there were only dating for the school year. She taught herself how not to get to caught up emotionally with any dude. When the school year was over it was only Bryan and Kalib. Bryan was too deep in the streets for her to get caught up with and Kalib was in the streets but  not too far. Kalib was more into drug dealing while Bryan was into doing what it takes to make that money from drugs to murder.

A whole new world

Clarice and Beatrice were closer than ever and they started going skating, to the mall, walking, and even the carnival. They had so much fun while they were together. They both liked to dance and they would always dance around the room on rainy or snowy days. Beatrice was still being picked on by guys not knowing they liked her so she would try different things to make her look pretty. She starting babbling in women's fashion a little more. Just understand this one thing, she never really dressed like a girl but did not like long clothing unless they were pantsor capri's. One day while she was at the mall she saw a really cute mini skirt and thought " I wonder how this would look on me". So she went into the dressing room and tried it on and was surprised at how nice it looked on her. At this point she was sold and did not want anything else. When her and Clarice returned home she hung the skirt in her closet and did her chores while Clarity did her homework from Friday. She elementary day at home on the phone or reading. She had a collection of teddy bears, jewelry, shoes, and lots of other things to keep her occupied. The next day she went to a friends house and spent some time with her and her cousins. Visiting them would always be fun and she would visit them just about everyday. They would have parties and family gatherings that Clarice and Beatrice were always invited to.
I really apologize for the short portions but my laptop is broken and these are just a little something keep you interested. If you like my blog please follow me and continue to show some support. I appreciate each and every one of you and I will continue to make post at least three times a week. I am posting short stories for now but continue to follow for more longer stories coming soon.

Changes

When Beatrice's brother Jackson was going through a crazy court case with a crazy judge, she was still focused. Eventually they moved to another neighborhood and Jackson was still gone. New school, new home, new life and to Beatrice this was gonna be hard but st least she had her grandfather. The first week in school was easy but when people started noticing her it got a little rocky. Some girls wanted to pick on her, while others just did not talk to her. She got tired of the bullying and trash talking so instead of staying focused she decided to speak her mind. At that point she gained a little more respect and even made some new friends. One weekend while she had company her grandfather collapsed and died of cancer. This was the second man she really cared about that she lost. She became very disruptive in class but her grades never dropped though. One weekend  That summer she joined a cheerleading team to keep her busy plus she liked it. There was only one problem too much free time and not enough to do. Her friends were all partying and having fun while all she did was sit at home. Bored with her daily routine she started to go to the beach with her sister and friends, that's when she started spending more time in the street. To her it was harmless until she noticed that some of her friends smoke, drink, and even have sex. She never joined in because she did not think she was ready for sex, but she would try drinking and smoking. Peer pressure is a real problem in this world.

Open your eyes II

In middle school Beatrice joined chorus and went on to all city chorus. During the summer she would spend most of her time at the pool or the beach. For a summer or two her mother put her in a camp at her job which should have fitted Beatrice very well. She was so hurt by the fact that they were holding Jackson in custody she did not act like herself and was sent home everyday. Instead of going home she would go work with her mother. At this time her mother was the secretary of a library so she would help her mother file, print, and replace books. She also learned how to type while she was there. MeanWhile Jackson was into making fast money. One night while they were all sitting in the house eating Chinese food there was a big bang at the door. Normally you would think it was the police knocking but instead it was a boy from the neighborhood. The bang happened again and finally her dad got up and went to the door to find the boy running, so he chased him. Behind her fathers Jackson, when they caught him they beat him. A few months later they was a hard knock at the door. This time it was the police looking for Jackson. Apparently  Jackson has been taking his spare time and using it to steal to make money. It was a horrific moment for Beatrice, the only brother she was close to was getting incarcerated. That broke her heart. She continued to focus on her studies at that point that was all that mattered. No more fun times with Jackson but deep down she hoped he would come home soon.

oopen your eyes

I used know a girl who was very active as a child. She liked to ride bikes, swim, dance, sing, do puzzles, play all sorts of games, but her favorite game was sorry. She was very happy as a child and she was even into her education. Her name was Beatrice. She was quite a little tom boy too! At a young age she he witnessed her parents fighting, father drinking but she had a great relationship with them. She had two other siblings in home as well a brother named Jackson and a sister named Clarice. They played all the time and had lots of fun. Climbing trees, going to the beach, and listening to music were some of the things they did. As time went on Jackson became interested in the streets and Beatrice became interested in careers. This is just part of the story so if you want to read more. You just have to stay tuned and show as little support. I am a single mother of Three boggling and using my talent like I am supposed to do. So to all my parents pay close attention because some people's lives are deeper than what you see. Yes each individual has a choice on where their lives end up but there is a lot more to it.