The things you go through when you in love

I always knew I was wifey material but guys always gotta be selfish, disrespectful or disloyal. As a single woman I have been through so much with so many guys I have gotten to the point where my tolerance is low for men because of the things written above. Previously I was talking to this guy for years on and off and he always gave me what i wanted bt i had to deal with other females and too much drama. After him it was a guy who was always irritated and stayed being mean for no reason, I could not deal with him at all! He only lasted about 2 weeks. Then there were the liars that came around when beneficial to them and stay lying about unneccessary shit. They only las a week at the most with me lmao. Then you have the ones who cant comprehend nothing thats being said, everything is always misinterpreted. Miscommunication is a problem for me being that I am very intellectual and conversating is something I like to do, which means they only last a few days lls. Ok now my problem is i met a guy who contains every single one of those traits but he is so addictive to me. This man was my everything in my new space and he took that away from me. I finally decided to give him my all and he bounced with too much animosity for no reason. I fell in love with the crazy contraption god made this man to be and I cant seem to shake the feelings. No matter what I do or who I talk to he always resurfaces in my mind. I could be cuddling with somebody and get the urge to text him or just start thinking about him and he act like he wants nothing to do with me. This man is driving me into a pit of feelings that i cant control no matter how hard I try. He obviously still has something going for me because he keeps riding past my house knowing he dont talk to nobody on my street. He always bringing me up to the same people he dont talk to like that knowing they my associates too. In my mind i wanna move on but my heart wont allow me to.

PartVII

Before leaving her grandmothers home Beatrice made it known she wanted the money owed to her for filing her child. Her grandmother angrily told her "I am not giving you shit, I will spend that money on the baby!". Instead of continuing to argue with her grandmother Beatrice politely packed her and her baby things as she looked for a motel for her family to stay in. By the time her grandmother came home from work her house was empty of anything that would remind her of Beatrice. As soon as she got settled in the room she sat down and put the baby to sleep and made one phone call to a close friend who she knew would come to her rescue. Out of all the people she encountered between nine different schools and two different cities she only had a handful that she could trust. This guy was a lifesaver every time and regardless of what he was doing he made time for Beatrice. She called him Monty, she had a thing where your real name was something that should never be used so she gave everybody their own name. She called him Monty because he was a nice guy who had good money and did not mind spending. When the phone call was over she finally asked her parents to keep the baby because she was sleeping and at that time they no longer used drugs. Monty would be there in twenty minutes so she had to clean up quick! She went in the room and found a nice pair of blue jeans, a black top, some clean underclothes and a pair of all black knee high boots. She was ready to go on the town in fifteen minutes and still had time to smoke the blunt she rolled while she was on the phone with Monty. As soon as she lit the blunt she heard a knock at the door and politely said "who is it?", but she could barely hear their response. So she got up and went to the door and repeated herself, this time she heard them and opened the door. As she was opening the door she seen Monty pulling up. She wanted to surprise him with her new look since he had not seen her in a few days so she closed the door and waited for his call. As she waited for his call she continued to talk to a old friend she had not seen since high school named Corey. They use to always pick with each other and plot on others together outside of school. Two minutes later the phone rings instead of answering on the first ring she waited for the third ring and answered. Before she left the house the gave herself one more look over and walked outside and down the steps. Montty did not see Beatrice until she started coming down the steps so at first all he saw was a pair of womens high heeled knee high boots. As Beatrice face slowly appeared and he realized whonit was he mouth dropped wide open in shock because he was unaware of what he should expect. When she got in the car all he could do was smile and gawk at her beauty. She was not sure of his response so she blushed as he took it all in and two minutes later they pulled off. As they rode down Jefferson ave he asked her "what do you want to do?" She replied "can we go to the movies?" Before she knew it he was already in route to Regal Cinemas and knew what they were going to see. She walked in the theatre with so much pride and confidence even the workers noticed her. As he bought the tickets a guy standing with his date for the night was sending Beatrice eye signals and she just turned her head.

The way people think today

In today's world I have noticed that people are not as kind and friendly as they use to be. We all have our own minds yes but do people have to be so devious, trifling or just plain old wrong? In my life I have ran across plenty of nasty individuals who are looking to only get what they want or need from you everytime they come see you. I recently enountered a guy who treated me like a queen and cared for my kids as if they were his bt in the end he did nothing bt talk bad about me, stalk me and curse at me after we stop talking. In my previous relationship i was well taken care of as long as I did what he needed done until I had his child then he did everything because of his child. I have encountered several women who took advantage of a good man making it hard for a good woman to keep him. There are a shortage of good men and women in the world today because of people doing things to hurt them mentally, physically, emotionally or spiritually. Why hurt people who break their backs to be a part of your life? Why be a careless person when you can be a person of gratitude, honesty, trust and loyalty?

Learning how to be a mother

Even though her parents were still on drugs Beatrice  did whatever  she had or wanted to do. She was starting ti realize ahead had to be an adult and stop running the streets during her free time. She trusted her parents but not with her child while they were on drugs because of what happened to her. At this point she started focusing on getting a job even though she just found out she would have to attend night school in order to graduate. So during the summer she got a job working in a call center, then along comes the school year. Now she attends school during regular hour getting out at 1, right school ending at 3 and work from 3-12. Her schedule was now full, she did not have time fir her child let alone her self. Things were going fine when all of a sudden her baby got sick. When she took her to the doctor they said basically the baby was healthy and at that point she decided her schedule was too busy for a 3-7 month old. Before quitting her job she discussed with her parents about transportation and she hit a dead end with them again. She made a promise to herself that she was going to try and be a little more independent and that went good for a few months until she had to drop out of school. That was the hardest thing for her to do because ahead has always been interested in going to college and she was already in her senior year. Making that decision broke her heart but it was either the education or the income, which both of them will help provide for a family she chose the one she needed at that time the most. When tax time rolled around everybody wanted to file her child but she planned on filing her but her papers never arrived so she told her mom she could file her. When her grandmother asked about it she expressed he mother would be doing it and germ grandmother took it upon herself and filed her anyway.

Part VI

After finally getting in touch with the school board she found out her parents had to support her story by going to the school board. Her mother said she had to work so she asked her father who was not working at the time and he also said no. Beatrice made the decision to continue going to school and do all she can to graduate. The first year of her daughters life was hard for her. Between going to high school from 7 a.m to 12 p.m, night school from 1p.m to 3 p.m and working from 3p.m til midnight she was most exhausted while her baby was getting sick. Beatrice asked her parents to co-sign on a car and they refused. She brought her grades up but had to quit school because her baby needed her and her parents were still on drugs. Although she was surrounded by family she still had very little support and wanted more out of life not only for her but for her baby. She had no idea raising a child would be as hard as it was for her, her child had problems from birth that she was unaware of due to lack of information. Long sleepless nights and countless doctors visits were her schedule over the next 4 years to find out what was wrong with her baby girl and what she could do to help. At the age of five her daughter was diagnosed with chronic constipation, which could have been caught at birth. To find out her baby colon was backed up and not working properly was heart breaking, she did everything she possibly could to comply with the doctors. Valentines day that year she got pregnant with her second child and was still in a odd position in life. Pregnant and all she was at every doctors appointment and still worked to provide although there was a good chance of her losing the job because she need more time off than normal. On november she gave birth to another beautiful baby girl and her heart grew warmer

Part III

while thinking about Bryan's proposal for a while and the way he treats her and everything else she had going on. Granted he was a good lover but he had his faults. He would take her to his house regardles of what woman he had in his room, fix her breakfast after meeting her at her bus top or on the way and giving her at least $500 to spend as she please. She was young but she was a accessory that plenty of guys wanted. He woud do anything for her even have his guys follow her and he would say it was for her protection. How he would always seem to find her when she moved and say '' If you leave your boyfriend I will leave my girlfriend and we can go get married right now!''. This was strange to her, she had never thought or paid attention to anything outside the money and sex. She was blinded by something that could make her or break her. Everybody in the neighborhood knew about her pregnancy and she still had not told her father. One day while she was over a friends house somebody told her that her apartment was on fire. Even though she was pregnant she started asking questions about the incident. She was told a cousin of hers was behind the apartment in the exact spot the fire started before the flames began to grow. As she put it all together in her mind she ran to where her cousin was and confronted him and she was ready to fight. Due to fire dmage to the apartment they had to move and had three days to get all their stuff out. They lost everything including items that reminded her of her grandfather and photo albums. They moved and she changed schools and ran into some old friends and new friends. As she grew throught her pregnancy and started to wobble because she was only  five foot three and now weighed almost two hundred pounds. When she told Kalib, how was he gonna respond was all she could think about. He was her main dude and he was very immature. When he found out he said it wasn't his and that hurt her feelings so she went on throughout the pregnancy with her parents and that is what she did. She was worried about her childs health because of the heavy drinking and smoking she did the first four months. During her eleventh grade year while she carried her baby she countinued to go to school. When she was seven in a half months pregnant she went to the office and asked for a elevator key because taking the steps everyday was becoming a problem. They refused to give her a key to the elevator because it was only used for hadicap students. The next day while trying to make it to class she went up the stairs and lost her balance. Luckily there was another student behind her and gave her a hand by adding support to her back. When she got to class shr was exahuasted, she tried to pay attention in class but she was too tired to stay awake. She slept through most of the class and had to go back downstairs to get to the next one. When she got downstairs she went straight to her guidance counselor and told her what had just happened by the end of the day she got notified that she was gonna start homebound. They assigned a teacher to come to her house and teach her to avoid any incidents. For the remainder of her pregnancy she kept good grades and she still talked to Kalib because he was incarcerated and none of his other females would not accept his calls or write. In April of 2000 she gave birth to a healthy baby girl and was ready to go back to school but there was one problem. She had a boil on her butt and was forced to continue homebound. Eventually her homebound teacher had decided the she was only going to come on Mondays and Fridays then eventually she did not come at all. When she finally got her report card she had all F's and one A so she made the decision to call the school board again and find out what she had to do to get her grades right.

Street life II part one

Beatrice accepted the proposal from Bryan but refused to move in with him. She was in a cosmetology class in the mornings. This class was not located inside her school, so they had a bus that would transport  the kids back and forth to Paul Jones education center. The next morning when she woke up to go to school her stomach was turning. Beatrice thought it was from the night before because she was drinking heavy and smoking heavy as well as smoking cigarettes. So she decided she was not going to school until noon, she sent Clarice to school and went to see her friend Tasha. When she got to Tasha's house she found out Tasha was hung over too. Tasha told her ''The best way to get over a hang over is to drink another alcoholic beverage.'', so Beatrice took that drink. As they were drinking and talking Tasha was rolling a blunt and Beatrice noticed that her stomach did feel a little better but was still hurting. While they smoked Tasha said '' You need to go to school'', Beatrice then told her '' Girl I was still drunk when I woke up this morning, there was no way I was gonna go to school like that! I am going to schol at 12 since none of my classes at the school start until after lunch.'', Tasha agreed and rolled another blunt. When 12 o'clock came beatrice thought about her day as she was getting dressed and someone knocked on the door. When she opened the door it was Kalib and he came over so they can spend some time together. They smoked 3 more blunts while they cuddled on the couch, then they went upstairs to have sex. After a hour and a half Kalib had to leave to go make a sell and school was letting out so Beatrice went to see another friend named Angel. She was one of her closest friends in the neighborhood and they had a little group that they hung out with. Angel and Beatrice played a card game called five thousand for almost a hour then Victoria, Malika, Yolanda, and Wendy walked in, so they started playing spades. Yolonda did not play cards so she just sat and watched. This was the house that everybody hung out at and Angel's mother was a really cool addict who didn't care aboit the company they kept. She spent most of her time in her room with her friends, there was no mystery as to what was going on up there because when you go upstairs you could smell the stinch of her drug of choice. The next thing Beatrice knew Kalib was walking through the door and he came to sit right beside Beatrice. Everybody knew Kalib and Beatrice was talking but nobody knew if it was serious or not. Only Beatrice and Kalib knew the answer to that and their lips were sealed. As Beatrice continued to play cards Kalib rolled a blunt and passed it around. There was only Kalib, Beatrice and Malika smoking  the blunt which was better to them. ''The less people smoking the higher we get'' Kalib said.