why do me do what they do

Some of these men today need a reality check! They need to realize that love does not come with a good connection at first. Shit some people actually cant stand each other at first and most of the time its only because they have so much feelings for one another. When they actually put in the work to show a bad, confused, abused, well basically damaged girl she has no idea what she has and does him wrong. Every man is not built ford tough, in touch with their feelings or ready to commit to a serious relationship. As individuals, even us women, have our reserved feelings about people's motives. Sometime not only do they have to put in some hard word the damaged individual does too. Now as you can see I changed it from men to individuals because today women are just as bad as men. Sometimes you gotta be patient and continue to focus on you as the other individual does what it is they do best. I am not saying stick around or wait around for a individual to get it right! If you run into a good catch to let it loose because you still feeling somebody else. Give them a fighting chance at your heart and stop letting the past control your future. We all deserve happiness but sometimes happiness comes at a price and it all about if you want to pay it do so on your own. The only thing a female or male should do in a relationship ,especially if they not serious, is buy when and what he/she wants when they want. The other party should be grateful they have somebody who will do things out of the kindness of their hearts. My message to all of our youth is to cherish the woman who cherishes you and always keep one eye open. Everything can not be solved with violence so think before you act!

what is considered stalking

There is a definition for the word stalking and then there is my definition of stalking! The definition of stalking is unwanted attention from a individual or group of individuals, now my definition just goes a little more into detail. This goes for guys and girls! If you have dated or just see this person and you can't seem to let them live a normal life without showing your face you stalking. If you always seem to have a attitude or seem extra happy when a certain individual is mentioned you borderline stalking. If you stay nowhere near their neighborhood and always seem to find a reason to be in the area, even if it is family you dont really like, you stalking. Since when does a person doing things they dont normally do to see a individual is plain stalking. Why can't some people just accept that either they are wanted or unwanted by an individual? Why is it so hard for people to express their feelings? The way I see it we are all grown and we should all be completely honest with the other party from jump. Think on that and leave your thoughts

The things you go through when you in love

I always knew I was wifey material but guys always gotta be selfish, disrespectful or disloyal. As a single woman I have been through so much with so many guys I have gotten to the point where my tolerance is low for men because of the things written above. Previously I was talking to this guy for years on and off and he always gave me what i wanted bt i had to deal with other females and too much drama. After him it was a guy who was always irritated and stayed being mean for no reason, I could not deal with him at all! He only lasted about 2 weeks. Then there were the liars that came around when beneficial to them and stay lying about unneccessary shit. They only las a week at the most with me lmao. Then you have the ones who cant comprehend nothing thats being said, everything is always misinterpreted. Miscommunication is a problem for me being that I am very intellectual and conversating is something I like to do, which means they only last a few days lls. Ok now my problem is i met a guy who contains every single one of those traits but he is so addictive to me. This man was my everything in my new space and he took that away from me. I finally decided to give him my all and he bounced with too much animosity for no reason. I fell in love with the crazy contraption god made this man to be and I cant seem to shake the feelings. No matter what I do or who I talk to he always resurfaces in my mind. I could be cuddling with somebody and get the urge to text him or just start thinking about him and he act like he wants nothing to do with me. This man is driving me into a pit of feelings that i cant control no matter how hard I try. He obviously still has something going for me because he keeps riding past my house knowing he dont talk to nobody on my street. He always bringing me up to the same people he dont talk to like that knowing they my associates too. In my mind i wanna move on but my heart wont allow me to.

PartVII

Before leaving her grandmothers home Beatrice made it known she wanted the money owed to her for filing her child. Her grandmother angrily told her "I am not giving you shit, I will spend that money on the baby!". Instead of continuing to argue with her grandmother Beatrice politely packed her and her baby things as she looked for a motel for her family to stay in. By the time her grandmother came home from work her house was empty of anything that would remind her of Beatrice. As soon as she got settled in the room she sat down and put the baby to sleep and made one phone call to a close friend who she knew would come to her rescue. Out of all the people she encountered between nine different schools and two different cities she only had a handful that she could trust. This guy was a lifesaver every time and regardless of what he was doing he made time for Beatrice. She called him Monty, she had a thing where your real name was something that should never be used so she gave everybody their own name. She called him Monty because he was a nice guy who had good money and did not mind spending. When the phone call was over she finally asked her parents to keep the baby because she was sleeping and at that time they no longer used drugs. Monty would be there in twenty minutes so she had to clean up quick! She went in the room and found a nice pair of blue jeans, a black top, some clean underclothes and a pair of all black knee high boots. She was ready to go on the town in fifteen minutes and still had time to smoke the blunt she rolled while she was on the phone with Monty. As soon as she lit the blunt she heard a knock at the door and politely said "who is it?", but she could barely hear their response. So she got up and went to the door and repeated herself, this time she heard them and opened the door. As she was opening the door she seen Monty pulling up. She wanted to surprise him with her new look since he had not seen her in a few days so she closed the door and waited for his call. As she waited for his call she continued to talk to a old friend she had not seen since high school named Corey. They use to always pick with each other and plot on others together outside of school. Two minutes later the phone rings instead of answering on the first ring she waited for the third ring and answered. Before she left the house the gave herself one more look over and walked outside and down the steps. Montty did not see Beatrice until she started coming down the steps so at first all he saw was a pair of womens high heeled knee high boots. As Beatrice face slowly appeared and he realized whonit was he mouth dropped wide open in shock because he was unaware of what he should expect. When she got in the car all he could do was smile and gawk at her beauty. She was not sure of his response so she blushed as he took it all in and two minutes later they pulled off. As they rode down Jefferson ave he asked her "what do you want to do?" She replied "can we go to the movies?" Before she knew it he was already in route to Regal Cinemas and knew what they were going to see. She walked in the theatre with so much pride and confidence even the workers noticed her. As he bought the tickets a guy standing with his date for the night was sending Beatrice eye signals and she just turned her head.

The way people think today

In today's world I have noticed that people are not as kind and friendly as they use to be. We all have our own minds yes but do people have to be so devious, trifling or just plain old wrong? In my life I have ran across plenty of nasty individuals who are looking to only get what they want or need from you everytime they come see you. I recently enountered a guy who treated me like a queen and cared for my kids as if they were his bt in the end he did nothing bt talk bad about me, stalk me and curse at me after we stop talking. In my previous relationship i was well taken care of as long as I did what he needed done until I had his child then he did everything because of his child. I have encountered several women who took advantage of a good man making it hard for a good woman to keep him. There are a shortage of good men and women in the world today because of people doing things to hurt them mentally, physically, emotionally or spiritually. Why hurt people who break their backs to be a part of your life? Why be a careless person when you can be a person of gratitude, honesty, trust and loyalty?

Learning how to be a mother

Even though her parents were still on drugs Beatrice  did whatever  she had or wanted to do. She was starting ti realize ahead had to be an adult and stop running the streets during her free time. She trusted her parents but not with her child while they were on drugs because of what happened to her. At this point she started focusing on getting a job even though she just found out she would have to attend night school in order to graduate. So during the summer she got a job working in a call center, then along comes the school year. Now she attends school during regular hour getting out at 1, right school ending at 3 and work from 3-12. Her schedule was now full, she did not have time fir her child let alone her self. Things were going fine when all of a sudden her baby got sick. When she took her to the doctor they said basically the baby was healthy and at that point she decided her schedule was too busy for a 3-7 month old. Before quitting her job she discussed with her parents about transportation and she hit a dead end with them again. She made a promise to herself that she was going to try and be a little more independent and that went good for a few months until she had to drop out of school. That was the hardest thing for her to do because ahead has always been interested in going to college and she was already in her senior year. Making that decision broke her heart but it was either the education or the income, which both of them will help provide for a family she chose the one she needed at that time the most. When tax time rolled around everybody wanted to file her child but she planned on filing her but her papers never arrived so she told her mom she could file her. When her grandmother asked about it she expressed he mother would be doing it and germ grandmother took it upon herself and filed her anyway.

Part VI

After finally getting in touch with the school board she found out her parents had to support her story by going to the school board. Her mother said she had to work so she asked her father who was not working at the time and he also said no. Beatrice made the decision to continue going to school and do all she can to graduate. The first year of her daughters life was hard for her. Between going to high school from 7 a.m to 12 p.m, night school from 1p.m to 3 p.m and working from 3p.m til midnight she was most exhausted while her baby was getting sick. Beatrice asked her parents to co-sign on a car and they refused. She brought her grades up but had to quit school because her baby needed her and her parents were still on drugs. Although she was surrounded by family she still had very little support and wanted more out of life not only for her but for her baby. She had no idea raising a child would be as hard as it was for her, her child had problems from birth that she was unaware of due to lack of information. Long sleepless nights and countless doctors visits were her schedule over the next 4 years to find out what was wrong with her baby girl and what she could do to help. At the age of five her daughter was diagnosed with chronic constipation, which could have been caught at birth. To find out her baby colon was backed up and not working properly was heart breaking, she did everything she possibly could to comply with the doctors. Valentines day that year she got pregnant with her second child and was still in a odd position in life. Pregnant and all she was at every doctors appointment and still worked to provide although there was a good chance of her losing the job because she need more time off than normal. On november she gave birth to another beautiful baby girl and her heart grew warmer